In reality, and truthfully i am not well. my back hurts [ backbone senget since born ]. I chest feels so tight and i find difficulty in breathing. Each time I take a deep breath , all the muscles ache like hell. My migraine is getting worst. Normally I would take Cafegot and the pain will decrease. but now it does not work that way. I have to take volteran. 24/7 my whole body would be in pain. I do not know what to do anymore. My whole family is clueless now. Even  my elder sister who is doctor.

The saddest part is when i have lost my confidence to drive. It is like a huge labyrinth with big buses and lorries. I don't think I can be the designated driver anymore.

flickering lights would confuse my judgements and co-ordinations. bright lights would make me fell giddy.

i fell like vomiting mist of the time.

while i am going through these,Kitty would always be by myside. Each time I get up to go to the toilet at night, she will accompany met. Then when i get on my bed to continue my sleep, she will get into her basket and watch me.

At the moment, I am home alone with the kids. While watching a Korean Drama - Goong , Jinggo and MiMi are sound asleep on the carpet. They were fooling around all over the room. I guess they are tired.

Kitty and Copy are downstairs. Nowadays, my children would want my attention. They would take turn to sleep on my lap/chest. Each of them always have something to say to me. They would meow non stop for atleast 5 minutes. hmmmmm

anyway, i still think the best options is for me to be admitted to the hospital and let the specialists figure out what is wrong with me. KAN?