i hate myself

I am dissapointed today. For many reasons that is. I thought I could count on you to back me up.But instead you are ashamed of who I am. I know that you take me as a burden in your life.Crying myself to sleep has been a daily ritual for me , so that I would be tired enough to go to sleep alone. I have never felt so lonely in a house filled with people. At this crucial time of recovery, you choose to alienate me and left me all alone to settle down and comfort myself. Nothing I do seem to please you. All I do seem to be against your believes and principles. Why can’t you back me up? It hurts to know that you are ashamed of my weakness. From where I stand, I can see that things are going downhill after this. And I might loose everything that I have now.~riefa~