25.5.18

Hi everyone! ada ke org baca ni? Well my last entry was years ago. Now after two failed marriages, my late father had passed away and losing my job in the first four months this year is kinda overwhelming and definitely depressing. Ramadhan is the most struggling month for me. Juggling my life with meds is very tiring. I get confused some time. Anyway, there are loads of things to write. But I guess, let's make this first entry after a long hiatus a short one. Take care!
p/s Actually this is one of my blogs! Ada lagi,  a few...hahaha

xoxo
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2013

It is like less than 10 days to go before I am married again.  This time I pray really hard that it will lasts forever. But at the moment I am having a nervous breakdown plus anxiety attacks and all.... is it my meds? Am I taking too little or too much? Goos bye for now. I need to force myself to sleep. Switch ing off the Mac

I am back

The entries below were bloged 2-3 years ago. I am letting it out. But mind you. Did those incidents happened?

Syawal

It has been ages since I wrote. I am scared that I might jinx my health.IT IS BETTER NOW! Dengan kuasa ALLAH s.w.t I am fine. Cuma pen at sikit? But that is expected as I syawal is still 2 weeks left. Btw, I have an iPad2.. My family bought as my birthday gift. As I I really need one for my new spanking job.EDITOR. Even my immediate boss has one too! Melas gitu. But seriously....ALHAMDULILLAH, dengan kuasa ALLAH s.w.t Dan berkat doa PARENTS,FAMILY And everyone....I am on my road tp recovery!!! Plus I thought I was pregnant...but then it was just a false alarm... I am ok bout it. Okie 12am. Gtg, tq lovely peopl

i hate myself

I am dissapointed today. For many reasons that is. I thought I could count on you to back me up.But instead you are ashamed of who I am. I know that you take me as a burden in your life.Crying myself to sleep has been a daily ritual for me , so that I would be tired enough to go to sleep alone. I have never felt so lonely in a house filled with people. At this crucial time of recovery, you choose to alienate me and left me all alone to settle down and comfort myself. Nothing I do seem to please you. All I do seem to be against your believes and principles. Why can’t you back me up? It hurts to know that you are ashamed of my weakness. From where I stand, I can see that things are going downhill after this. And I might loose everything that I have now.~riefa~

i hate myself

I am dissapointed today. For many reasons that is. I thought I could count on you to back me up.But instead you are ashamed of who I am. I know that you take me as a burden in your life.Crying myself to sleep has been a daily ritual for me , so that I would be tired enough to go to sleep alone. I have never felt so lonely in a house filled with people. At this crucial time of recovery, you choose to alienate me and left me all alone to settle down and comfort myself. Nothing I do seem to please you. All I do seem to be against your believes and principles. Why can’t you back me up? It hurts to know that you are ashamed of my weakness. From where I stand, I can see that things are going downhill after this. And I might loose everything that I have now.~riefa~

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